there's just so much going on in my head right now. and i'm feeling so many things, i can't pick one out.
I'm jealous
I'm angry
I'm sad
I'm lonely
I'm bitter
I'm happy
I'm frustrated
I'm stressed
I'm overwhelmed
and all these things are combining and expressing themselves as nothing. a big black ball of nothing that occurs when you combine every color in the rainbow and every feeling i've ever had. i'm silently composing words that dont make it past the editors desk in my head
i'm working on making myself less dark and more yellow/orange/sunset
i'm trying to weed out morose and find/replace it with laughter
its not working